Anxiety is a liar - A ticket to ride
I often see my anxiety as being like a carousel at the fair. I’m on the carousel all by myself and its spinning round and round. The longer I'm on it the sicker and dizzier I feel. Eventually, I can’t really determine where I got on or how I get off. Whilst everybody walks past without noticing, I become increasingly tense and anxious; will the ride ever end? or Am I going to be sick? In that moment the only thing that exists is my feelings of complete hopelessness, fear and lack of control. For me, the problem is that once the ride has started, there seems to be no way to get off. Thoughts flash through my mind; can I escape by just leaping from my seat? Is there a way I can stop the ride? Will anyone notice I'm in trouble? I become stuck in this cycle of thinking, unable to see a way out. The truth is the best way of stopping myself from being in that situation isn’t to jump off and run away but is to work out why I bought a ticket for the carousel in the first place. What started me on my ride of anxiety? Knowing and understanding this helps prevents me from buying another ticket. It reveals to me not just how to manage my anxiety today, but how to avoid or resolve my anxiety in the future.
Getting to know your anxiety can really be the key to finding life. I have spoken to many friends who struggle with anxiety and not one of our experiences or triggers are the same. The only thing that is the same is, we are all trying to work out how it works for us and how we chose life on the journey. I found that I learned a great deal about myself as I got to know my anxiety. I discovered bits of myself that I love and some that I was horrified about! I ended up liking parts of me that I used to hate, all because I understood myself better.
What was it that started you on your ride of anxiety? That’s quite a massive question to answer and when I asked myself that for the first time it was really hard to determine really when, why and where it started.
It's hard to know what made you buy the ticket when you’re consumed by your current fear and anxiety. But, that’s the starting place. What lies is your anxiety telling you now? For me, it was that I was going to be sick or faint and everyone would see and judge me. Once you know what those lies are, ask yourself what created those lies, what taught you that fear? Then you can move onto the lie that came before that, and so on. Dealing with the small lies is the key to dealing with the bigger ones.
Discerning what anxiety is saying and what lies it is telling brings great clarity. With that clarity, we are empowered to reject them and make a choice to believe the truth.
Understanding brings clarity and clarity illuminates the path to freedom and hope. So why not start your road to freedom today?